Introspection

Nobody reads this, so nobody will care if I get introspective for a post or two... or all of them and that's why nobody reads these things.

"Just be yourself."
Or was it...
"Just be your self."

How the hell do I do that? I'm not really sure who I am. Or maybe I have an idea of who I am and I like some parts, but not other parts.

Shouldn't I have figured this crap out by now? I'm 33.

Maybe I'm in a "limbo" state because of my housing situation that is keeping me from feeling independent. God, I miss having my own place. Those were the days. I could have a beer and no one would say absurd things... I could go out and not have to tell anyone where I was going or feel guilty about going anywhere. I was free to be me. And here, stuck in this basement, I am free to be.. who? Teen aged me? Ugh. This is why it sucks. I feel like a teenager again, but in a really bad way.

Am I selfish? Am I tired of people judging me and telling me what to do? YES TO BOTH.

We all have to be a little bit selfish or else we lose our sense of self, right?

God, I miss my old apartment. And all of that sweet, delicious freedom. When will I have it again?